Homeschooling

So… It’s been awhile ey? Yea I thought so as well. Life has been a bit tough. Lost some good friends due to moral differences. Fought an educational system due to my children not having a penis, and quit my job due to our differences in opinions at said educational system.

So lots of life changes and surprisingly they feel pretty good. I am thankful for a hard working husband who is capable of being a primary bread winner so that I can pull our kids out of a mysoginistic, stereotypical, ridiculously ignorant educational system. They will get well versed with more opportunities at home than they ever can with a common core education. So lots of prayer and hope are being poured into planning my kids an unbiased education with more worldly views.

Current anxiety’s:

I’m going to f my kids up. For real, they are going to be so messed up educationally. Even though I “know” they will be better off at home learning I still feel I’m going to screw them up. They will have plenty of socialising through extra curricular but I still feel like I’m going to miss some huge detail and they will be lacking real world experience and education.

Positive note:

My kids will grow to be kind, non-racist, non-judgemental and smart people who contribute to society. I hope to teach them to always see things from another POV and not just through their own tunnel vision.

Wish me luck folks. I have our start date on August 14, 2017. I know I will do ok but I’m still overwhelmed and anxious about this new path!

Perception

Life goes on… With or without the ones you love, the ones you need, the ones you want. 

Life is ruthless. 

There is no mercy.  

It is no-holds-barred.

Life is hard.

Life will beat you down.

It…will…rip people away from you without notice, without reason, without batting an eyelash.

Life gives you people to love, care for, look forward to seeing everyday. 

Then it rips them from you like a baby from its mother’s womb.

The nastiness of life is bittersweet.

It’s sweet because it gives you people to love, care for and look forward to seeing everyday.

It’s sweet because each second is a blessing, a gift, a wonderful decadent piece of chocolate.

Life can be as beautiful as it is ugly.

Life is wonderful I’m the sense that sometimes if you are lucky it gives you a person to share it with, to grow old with, to have a children with.

It’s all how you choose to perceive your path.

I choose to live.  

I choose to live each second like it’s my last.

I choose to love fiercely without restraint.

I choose to love every person that comes into my life for a lifetime.  Regardless of who they are, who they love, what they look like or what they stand for.

Every person is sent to you for a reason.

Cherish them and every moment you get with them and don’t let a jaded Perception ruin your own.

Loss of life entirely to soon :(

Some rather sad news this evening.  A local boy my kids were friends with died of a rare form of cancer.  He loved…lived…for 2 years with this cancer while his parents made him undergo experimental treatment after experimental treatment.

My kids keep asking me… “Why wouldn’t God hell him?”

I thought about it for a moment and this is how I responded.The best I could tell them was….

“That he did heal him, for over 2 years God kept him alive, he had a terminal cancer, he should have been gone in less than 6 months.  Not for this little guys sake though, but for him to help lead people to Jesus and to help his family learn to cope with the loss they will now face”

…. Maybe that will help them deal with the loss, maybe it will help them at school when consoling their friends. 

I can only hope… Please remember this family in your thoughts and prayers.  I can’t possibly imagine losing one of my kids.