Life is hard. Plan and simple. It’s hard being married, it’s hard being a parent, it’s hard being an adult child with aging parents, everything about my life is hard.
Why can’t it be easy? Why can’t I have this post card feeling about my life? It’s a daily struggle to deal with everything that goes on around me, I feel like I’m going to just shut down and never reboot.
My kids constantly argue, my husband gives me whiplash with his mood swings, my friends are constantly complaining about everything wrong in their lives, I worry obsessively over bills, and kids, my weight. I’m not morbidly obese, but that is hereditary. I guess you would say I’m average to a bit overweight. I don’t know how. I don’t eat fast food, I don’t drink caffeine (except coffee in mornings), I drink tons of water, and I eat a healthy diet. I did start DDP Yoga yesterday to try and find some median of peace in exercising.
I hear people talking about unwinding. How the heck do you do that? Honestly, I have no idea. How? Someone tell me how? How do you live for the moment and not stress about tomorrow? That’s my million dollar question. I can sit here and be stressing over what I’m doing right now and be thinking about a hundred things for the next day which in turn causes me to have super high anxiety. A viscous evil circle that seems to be never ending.
I don’t know how much more I can handle before I have a nervous breakdown. Like, seriously….I’m broken.